Time Flies....

....even when you're not having fun!!

As much as I love my babies, the past month has been beyond challenging. Immy is getting MUCH easier ~ she is smiling soooo much and happy to be playing under her playgym for extended periods now but Madi.... not so good lol. She's quite unsettled and I'm hoping it passes soon because it means a lot of tears ~ from her and me!

Hopefully I'll have time to write a proper post soon but for now, a few recent pics xx

Tough Couple of Weeks

Well, the first 6 weeks of the girls' lives lulled me into a false sense of security lol. The following two weeks were a little more challenging.

Both Madi and Immy are doing really well ~ Madi is now 9 lb 4oz and Immy is 11 lb 7oz lol... she's a little chubba! They both struggle with wind/colic which is making things interesting and Immy has reflux but it's under control now thanks to meds.

The hardest thing for me is feeling that I can't give either baby (or Kara) the time that they need :(. It's just so full on and if both babies are screaming, I often have to let one go whilst I settle the other. I really hate that ~ Kara was never left to cry so it's something I'm just not used to. They are also out of sync with their sleeping, meaning I have been up hourly most nights. I think once they settle more at night, things will be more manageable again (I hope :P).

I have to say that I am very very lucky to have the friends I have. They have been invaluable and I have received so much support. Even with that support things are difficult but without it, it would be close to impossible for me to cope I think. It's taking some adjusting on my part to be able to ask others to help care for my girls! Not something I like to do.....

Anyway, I'm typing as fast as I can because Immy is stiring lol and I want to add some pics ~ they have changed so much!

V xx

Sooo Behind!!

This isn't a proper post!! I will try to get back on tonight with updated pics etc of the babies but this is more for readers of my other blog (vanessaandkara).

I have made that blog open to invited readers only, as there is a person whom feels the need to read about our lives and send me unsavoury emails. Making it closed will enable it to continue without me having to deal with them.

Please email me at fredbare@live.com.au if you would like to be on the reader's list :)

V x

One Month Already!!!

It's hardly surprising that I've been very very slack with my blog lol. I've been meaning to post some pics but time gets away from me. Whenever the babies are sleeping at the same time, I have so much else to do ~ including trying my hardest to spend time with my princess.

All in all, things are going really well. There have been a lot of {very} sleepless nights ~ mainly due to Imogen ~ but the days are great. They are just so gorgeous and I've only really had one meltdown so far!!

Some of my friends have been priceless. I hope they know just how much I appreciate all that they have done or offered to do. Just knowing I can call on them if need be makes things so less scary. All three of my girls are so lucky to be surrounded by people who love them.

As far as the babies go, they are growing like weeds!!! Madi, who was born 5lb 9oz, is now 7lb 12oz... she has grown more than a pound in two weeks. As for Immy, she's a little piggy LOL. She was born 5 lb 15oz and she is now 8lb 13oz... she has put on a kilogram in under 2 weeks. I am so relieved they are both going so well :)

Immy is stirring as I type, so I'll add some pics and aim to post again within the month!

V xx

My Three Princesses

I'm not sure where to start!!!! I suppose by saying that I am already totally in love with the girls ~ all three of them now :)

As planned, Madison Ada ~ named by her big sister and her middle name after my Nanna ~ and Imogen Susan ~ Susan after a very very special friend ~ were born via C-section on Tuesday December 7th, 2010. I'm not going to go into the whole C-section experience, except to say it was worse than I anticipated (and I anticipated it to be awful). I know my girls are here and arrived safely, but it still upsets me to think about that day.

Madison was born at 8:45am and weighed 5lb, 9oz. She was 46.5cm long with a head circumference of 32cm.... so tiny compared to Kara! Initially, they were a little concerned about her lungs ~ they weren't sure if she had 'wet' lungs which would pass in a few hours or premmie lungs... fortunately it was the former. She has HEAPS of black hair and very very dark eyes. She's won my heart ~ such a content and placid little girl (except for at nights when her and her sister love to scream). She is already back to her birth weight too ~ very unusual for a premmie baby :)

Imogen was born one minute later ~ at 8:46am. She weighed 5lb, 15oz, was 48cm long and also had a head circumference of 32cm. Even though their weights were only 160grams apart, she looks so much bigger than Madison. She is very much like Kara was as a baby and also looks like her big cousin, Ricky. She has dark brown hair and is the most gorgeous little girl during the day. At about midnight though, she grows horns and keeps us up until about 5am. I'm hoping this phase passes, as I'm too sore to make room in the shed atm :P. Imogen is also very close to her birth weight ~ they are getting weighed tomorrow so I will know then!

Both babies are just gorgeous and I can't wait until their big sister is home to share these early days with us. She's going to fall in love with them just as I have.

I've felt so lucky this week. So many messages full of love and support and just the feeling of absolute disbelief when I look at the babies and try to piece together that they are mine. That they grew inside of me ~ at the same time. It's so difficult to comprehend, especially when they look SO different!

One more thing ~ this whole journey would have been very different if it wasn't for my 'support' person. Sue, thank you for allowing me to share so many of my feelings over the pregnancy and both before and after. There were times when everything just felt too much and to have somebody listen and put it into perspective made a huge difference. I hope Imogen shares more than just your name and has some of your qualities too. Thank you xx

48 Hours to Go

....it's all becoming a bit too real now. I'm still hoping that when I go in on Tuesday morning that they scan me and Twin A has moved but I know it's highly unlikely :( There has been lots of movement though, so you never know I suppose. If the baby has moved, I'm not sure what will happen ~ I keep wishing I asked that on Friday. If it's head down, I would want to be induced before it moved again ~ I can't explain how much I hope it's moved.

Here is a pic from today ~ 36 weeks and 1 day. It's blurred because I took it in front of a mirror that needs cleaning lol.

Thanks to everyone who has sent lovely messages and left comments on here over the past 8 months.... it's a little odd to think the next time I post will be a birth announcement.

V xx

Not Feeling the Best

*edited to say that it's now on Tuesday, not Monday*

I feel like I should be over the moon at the moment but I'm feeling far from it.

We had a bit of a false alarm on Sunday night. I started feeling 'tightening' on Sunday afternoon and after a couple of hours, we thought it best to call the hospital to check whether or not I should go in to be checked. Given I was 35 weeks with twins and the tightenings were increasing, they asked me to go in. Luckily I was with my friend who will be with me, so off we went.

By early monday morning, the tightenings were more like contractions and it was looking like the babies were going to come that day. Forms were being signed and a c-section being discussed because when they scanned me, the presenting twin was footlong breech with the cord presenting. In a nutshell, I can't go into labour with the cord in the position it is, as it would put Twin A in danger.

By about 2:30am, the contractions stopped. I hadn't dilated and everything seemed to have settled down. I stayed until later on Monday but had to go back to hospital today.

The Ob I saw today wasn't happy about me being home with a presenting cord. She mentioned staying in hospital until my C-section on the 16th, as if I go into labour, I need to be in hospital within 5-10 mins. I wasn't at all keen on that, as I still have my girl to look after and whilst the babies are important, so is Kara. She also thought that having a c-section in 3 weeks is just too far away and she called my Ob and they agreed it needs to happen within the week.

So, on Monday, I'm going in the have the twins. I should be happy, relieved, excited, whatever. I'm just not though. I can't stop crying.

This isn't how I want it to be.... I still kept hoping the babies would move and I'm not happy about them coming at 36 weeks. It means special care, steroids and just too many unknowns.

Anyway, I can't change anything about it. I just wish it was different. I want to feel the excitement I did with Kara but it's just not there.

V x