....... My baby girl is due to become a big sister.I've decided to start a blog tracking the progress of my pregnancy.... not sure how successful it will be lol but I think it will be cool to look back on assuming everything goes to plan. It will also be a great place for me to share where I'm at.
At the moment, more than anything, I'm just feeling anxious. I hate this early phase ~ I constantly have a fear of losing the 'baby' and I just want to get to 12 weeks. Even then, I'm sure I'll stress and say I just want to be at 20 weeks..... I just want a healthy baby in my arms at the end of it lol.
So far, I feel exactly as I did with Kara. A constant hangover feel and over-sensitive smell.... I can't sleep and do about 5 pregnancy tests a week :P. I've tried to stop the latter..... I only have one left and am trying really hard not to use it lol.
At the same time though, I'm so excited. This baby is so very wanted. By me of course but also by Kara. Despite being so early in the pregnancy, I decided to tell her. I figured she needs to know why I'm feeling the way I am... I've explained to her that the pregnancy at this stage is only cells and that not all cells result in a baby... she understands that and after showing her some sites of the developing baby, she wants me to be 12 weeks too!! She has decided she doesn't care if she has a brother or sister now (she's always wanted a sister) ~ she just requested that if it is a boy, it be a quiet one. She's also asked that I buy a pram that has the handle at the front so she can see the baby when she's pushing it.... sooooo gorgeous!!!! I'm not worried about Kara adjusting at all.... not now.
So, at the moment, it's a waiting game. I have a scan in 2 weeks to check the heart beat and to make sure there's only one.
I am really looking forward to this journey.... I am so fortunate to have friends who are happy and excited to travel it with me too. I hope they know how much that means to me.
Oh ~ the title! The baby is due on 1-01-11... very cool :D xxx
